it's over! you really don't know how happy i am!
life is filled with ultimate level of pleasure and zero level of suffering right now.
hee. love philosophy don't we.
now i can read my books, watch my shows, go out with my friends, basically do everything that's not related to studying!

okay. now tell me how to go Tekong. but erm.. can i wait outside the forest for y'all? i got no intention of going outfield with you guys. haha. can't wait for sat!


the feeling's so awesome.
every single moment :) i think i am very sad now.
because the army boys are gathering!
WHY AM I AT HOME STUDYING?
this is $^#*(%^#*%^&.
don't finish sharing all the stories huh!
leave some for me please! for next sat!
i love army talk!
esp from you all!

i love you all!
bye!

back to killing or letting die. time to get to bed and then, the battle with philosophy shall commence tmr, at 11am.
i am very scared but lingling, it won't kill you, it will only make you stronger.

bye people. till monday, 11am. You know they always say that the rich aren't happier than the poor? and that the second million won't make you as happy as the first? and that when you are poor, bankruptcy is just a everyday thing?

okay. that's my summary of how i'm feeling. not that i'm broke but i mean, how i'm feeling in another context.

actually, i don't understand why either.
i just hope that it's a one-time thing, or rather one semester thing.
i can't help it but i really miss myself cause i don't like the me now.

i miss family days too. it's been a very long while since we had dinner together. i miss those laugh non stop but will only stop when someone choke on her food kinda dinner.
now, everyone's busy (me too), and we seldom get to eat together.
i don't like.

i miss the xiongs days too. we do nothing the whole semester except mahjong, drink, daidee, ktv.
okay lah. we did projects and had exams too but it's definitely not so stressful. we always laughed a lot before the papers because km will be entertaining us by telling us how he's going to ace those papers. i don't miss our taiwan trip though but i am really missing all our traditions. but then again, everyone's doing different things now and it gets harder to meet up and all. but still, i will never forget the fact that y'all are my greatest comfort for the past 3 years.

err.. honestly, i don't really miss the usuals. HAHA. BUT THAT'S BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I KEEP SEEING YOU ALL WHATTTT! but i can't wait to see the guys for the first time after enlistment. please queue up in front of me. one by one i'll touch your head. see which one i like the most. HAHA. this totally deserve vulgarity from bingbing. but well, next week i think i can see you all alr. in case you all haven't realised, 2011 is so near! which means the 9th year of friendship. WE WENT THROUGH A LOT BUT IT SURE DOESN'T SEEM SO LONG OKAY? hmmm. but then we grow up together and now that majority of us are grown up (mentally) so okay lah. 9 years!! we must make every 21st birthday celebration CHIBABOMB again!!! just like our 18th! haha.


gonna sleep like a log tonight and think about nothing examessaymcqmodulecap related. just all the nice things that happened to me (but in actual fact, i think i may just fall asleep while blinking...)


and of course, R's in my blood :) Ytd was cheeandthebye day. (i alr spent 3 mins trying to reduce the amt of vulgarities, this is my best.)
i couldn't fully concentrate on my work.
cause it's just too $@&^%*^&$
but it's all good now. mornings are the best cause they are always the start of a brand new day.
problems all solved i guess.
so now i can go do the final revision for my paper.

thank you very much god.





This is the ever most painful process.
it's just not as desirable, not as smooth-sailing than both you and i thought it will be.


Good luck for the remaining 3 papers :) witnessing everything on my own helps me to form my own judgement on people.
an eye opener i must say.
i hate to say this but this is definitely not my style of handling issues.
everyone has to learn the right way, the high EQ way.
and i think that it is one of the important lessons to survive in this world.
well, perhaps, they're still young(not really though.)
OKAY LAH. I'M OLD LAH!!!!!


anw, wish me luck for my papers alright. it'll be over soon.
and so hardcore mugging starts tmr.

Gosh! i really can't wait to see my brothers who just started their dog days.


alright. that's about all then.
Good luck to y'all.
Goodnight and Goodbye.

Till 29th... But studying really makes people emotional and depressed.
in about another 2 weeks time people.
can't wait. these things, so intangible.
it's beautiful but at the same time, a wrong move can just crush you easily. The pathway that I always walk back home at night (fyi, i walk a different route when the sun is up) is damn beautiful tonight.
It's supposed to be scary and dark and very scary and very dark.
But i don't know why tonight it looks damn nice.
the street lamps, the trees, the path.
i think i could really sit down and just chat with a friend.
Of course, that is if I have a friend with me tonight.
But then again, perhaps it wouldn't look so nice if I'm not alone.


Have been spending quite a lot of time in the library. mugging my ass off (at least i'm trying to). you know what? i hate it the most when the pa system starts announcing that the lib is closing. To be exact, it's about 9.10. and the whole of level 6 will just turn chaotic. people start speaking at normal volume. everyone starts packing. i start to feel the stress man.
On second thought, it's also quite funny actually. as in the whole scene of people rushing out of the library.

oh gosh. is my 10mins break up? i think so :( sorry. i can't stop. Tonight. I didn't live in my own fantasy, or maybe I did.

sometimes, we all need a brand new week to bring us back to reality. please don't reply me.



ah. okay. you did.



and yes, I'm glad I did it. cause I know I'll be letting myself down if I did not.


the last character is a full stop.
and it's like you always know what i want.


Thanks __.
bye.

Just as every summer ends,
all tourists come home, all dreamers wake up. When we were young.



Honestly, i can't comprehend the change.
firstly, i cannot bring myself to.
secondly, i have no time for it. (i've got so much studying to do and worrying about our H as well. yes. it's ours.)
thirdly, even if i can and i have the time for it, maybe i just wouldn't because well. erm.. I'm a scaredy cat.


i hope the faith in me will always remain. it's because we're so alike and we used to be so close, that's why i know for sure what you're thinking and how you're feeling right now, over this.
The subtle hints. i guess it hurts a lot, for both sides.
I'll still insist on both sides.
i'm not the one making the decision but still, i hope all turns out well.
sometimes, after all the pain and anguish are gone, you'll realised that the sun is actually more beautiful than it is now, the moon is rounder than it is now, the stars are brighter, you'll even see shooting stars.
okay. what i'm trying to express here is that, sometimes, you just need time to realise that "oh, he/she is not the one" - that is if you even believe in the one (i don't btw).
hmmm. think 500days of summer. think Tom. think Summer.
honestly, that's what i see now. (I'm so Rachel Hansen.)


On a side note, I don't think that i'm a good friend. Logic works so much in me that i have an objective view in most matters that perhaps, i don't feel that much.
sorry huh. a while ago, i thought i lost my phone.
i frowned at first and then , i smiled.
it's like someone turned on the lightbulb(idea!idea!idea!)
and, the image of Iphone floated into my mind.


complete the stupid fk up ES essay by 3pm and i'll spend 1 hour to plan my mugging schedule.
I'm gonna follow closely to it.
NEED to do well for finals. yes. it's a NEED.


make it on 9th instead please.