things happen. as usual. on a daily basis. in fact many things are happening every second, it's only a matter of whether you noticed it or not. perhaps in a way, i shut down the voices around me. reminders here and there but i ignored all, just like what i usually do - believe too much in myself. in a way, i'm just glad that it's only a touch-and-go, nothing deep. not yet at least. and maybe, this is the kind of motivation, the kind of encouragement that i'm waiting for. i'm sick. i know. but anyway, tonight, i feel the pain. like seriously, OUCH. long time since i last felt such pain(not like i really enjoy it a lot.) words are after all words, just like what i'm typing right now. one day, i'll forget all and come back to this very moment again. ahh, the vicious cycle we say. face the sad fact my dear, one thing that is always (or at least most of the time) wrong is my judgment but the nice thing that happened this time round is that i'm slightly more careful with myself. just like what i told my girlfriend, i still prefer living in my own world. small and comfortable. Erm..i'm not exactly upset actually, not really disappointed too. just that at that exact moment, i feel OUCH and that's it. shall go back to my new media - econs - social work mode. get hell excited about new media readings, doing econs tutorial and memorising social work theories.
okay. now that i'm about to press the post button, the pain is still here. it's like paper cut you know? you squeeze the blood out and then no more blood cause it ain't that deep but the wound is still visible as in you can still see that one line there. and after a few hours, if you press it, it'll be slightly pain but you know, paper cut doesn't really require any plaster. it will recover by itself and at a fast enough pace too.
bye paper cut.