the last bit of September love.
Gone are D-ays.
that's it.




shelter. okay. tell me about it.
what is worth?
I'm not too sure about it actually.



both is too much.
one is better cause ugh. i don't know. I'm hungry and I can't think but I know one is better than both.


okay. econs is 30%. not very funny. squeezing through the crowd...
who/what will you see in the end? Monday is gone and so are NM test, SEA reflection paper, SEA tutorial group presentation.
left with econs and sw now.
i hate sw. i mean it and i hate myself even more for sleeping through all the past 6 lectures.




fifty percent is so funny today. and for this, i shall secretly award you one more percent.


okay. back to sw tut preparation.


p.s. It rained heavily today. friday, i'm so looking forward to you.
wait for me alright? things happen. as usual. on a daily basis. in fact many things are happening every second, it's only a matter of whether you noticed it or not. perhaps in a way, i shut down the voices around me. reminders here and there but i ignored all, just like what i usually do - believe too much in myself. in a way, i'm just glad that it's only a touch-and-go, nothing deep. not yet at least. and maybe, this is the kind of motivation, the kind of encouragement that i'm waiting for. i'm sick. i know. but anyway, tonight, i feel the pain. like seriously, OUCH. long time since i last felt such pain(not like i really enjoy it a lot.) words are after all words, just like what i'm typing right now. one day, i'll forget all and come back to this very moment again. ahh, the vicious cycle we say. face the sad fact my dear, one thing that is always (or at least most of the time) wrong is my judgment but the nice thing that happened this time round is that i'm slightly more careful with myself. just like what i told my girlfriend, i still prefer living in my own world. small and comfortable. Erm..i'm not exactly upset actually, not really disappointed too. just that at that exact moment, i feel OUCH and that's it. shall go back to my new media - econs - social work mode. get hell excited about new media readings, doing econs tutorial and memorising social work theories.
okay. now that i'm about to press the post button, the pain is still here. it's like paper cut you know? you squeeze the blood out and then no more blood cause it ain't that deep but the wound is still visible as in you can still see that one line there. and after a few hours, if you press it, it'll be slightly pain but you know, paper cut doesn't really require any plaster. it will recover by itself and at a fast enough pace too.
bye paper cut. at times we get soooo pissed off with ourselves.
and for me, it's right now.
and as usual, it's always related to the fking stupid sense of directions.
i don't think it's unlucky, i think it's me. honey lemon love!

and so, i'm 90% done with my SEA reflection paper(except for the references) and my philo weekly summary for next week. i reckon i wouldn't have time to do it next week with the 3 papers to really mug on.

alright.
shall go and study my
newmediacultureandsocialworkchaptertwoandeconschapterone.

bye people. you all know that i'm a very careful person right? for the wrong yet beautiful reason, i shall let myself indulge in it for awhile more.
just awhile more. just finished my beloved corn from pasar malam.
UGH! WHY DIDN'T I BUY MUAH CHEE & HERBAL TEA EGGS!!!!!!!
tmr tmr tmr.
tmr after dance, i'll buy all!
muahahaha.

everytime i'm at or near pasar malam, my memory will automatically bring me back to the days whereby we used to camp at JE interchange during our year 1 period. macs for hot fudge, ice skating rink...
meet up right after school! from different faculties, different schools.
The guys will keep buying(i really mean non-stop buying) the extremely smelly thing(alright, it's a food not exactly THING.) from the malay stall, ESP LIM AH LIANG!
his famous quotations:
HAO CHI HAO CHI times another 10 times.
(think HAO KAN HAO KAN - the exact same irritating level. haha.)
i still find it smelly but whenever i walk pass the malay stall, i can't help but think of you guys. Y'all are really damn funny.
alright.
sorry for being so nostalgic.
(this is what happens every time i'm under stress.)


actually, i'm quite productive today.
shall leave blog space and facebook while i give full blast kinda attention to my Southeast Asia 3 pages reflection paper.
3 pages, shouldn't take me too long rightttt?
i hope so.

ah. i have social work visit tmr. it says jurong west st 61 which means it's freaking near to my place. lucky much.
but the second social work visit is at katong(yes. near samsam's place) and it's at 9.30am.
hmmm..not so lucky after all.


oookay. friday friday friday.
friday shall be it!
my motivation once again!


p.s. i shall cook tang yuan!!!! LOVE IT MAX! studying started.
well, about 4 hours ago.
guess, i shall be a good girl.
stay at home. study study study, till social work MCQ is over(which is next friday).


the first XB embarrassing moment happened around May or June.
basically, it happened only to about half of us(samsam, kaming, daryl and me)
we bought tickets for The Back-up Plan and of course, went to the wrong theatre.
Actually, i don't think that entering the wrong theatre is embarrassing.
i don't wanna go into details what really happened but apparently, INSISTING that we are at the right theatre is DAMN EMBARRASSING.

and so, the second XB embarrassing moment happened last night.
we happily went into a pub and according to the guys, samsam and me created a nuisance in there. (I seriously don't think so cause we were just laughing and okay, perhaps jumping and hopping around. nothing else.)
we were getting funny when this staff came over and requested to check our IC.

Kaming: WAH! just show him our driving license can already larrrr..
Samsam: I didn't bring my IC, show you my student card also can right?
Lingling: wah lao. we old max! old TTM! really need to check us?
Seng: check me! check me! i love it when people check my IC!

alright. i really don't know why but we all went kinda mad at the very moment when he requested to check our IC.

Staff: Actually, the minimum age to enter this pub is 25.

we're all just stunned.
(Daryl being Daryl just walked out almost immediately)


and then, samsam named it "fking epic night" after two days of doing nothing, i really must start studying on tuesday.
WHERE'S MY MOTIVATION??? Teenage Dream. YAY! RECESS WEEK!
we all need a break.
from all.
my plan: get myself buried under the readings, lecture notes, tutorial questions.

counting down to 1st oct(that's about 2 weeks)!
end of mid term papers!



i'm so worried about philo.
with all the low grades i'm getting from the weekly summaries, i have a feeling that the story of MOB will repeat.
No No No!!!!!!
i will really cry :( If it's real, i wanna run away.
but this time round, i don't want to run alone. As compared to last week, philo assignment for this week is so damn easy.
I haven't eat yong tau foo from the deck yet (for this week i mean). I'm so gonna have it on fridayyy.
Recess week is coming.
I do have a few plans but of course, i'll focus my time on mid-term papers.
i always love recess week cause it's the only chance to really catch up and know what's going on for the past 6 weeks.
Now i have 250 words for my ES essay. (I didn't skip SW lecture for nothing! YAY!)
complete it by tonight and tmr can be left for NM project. If there's still time, i can start on my SEA tutorial summary!
I know that I'm always efficient when i'm under stress, that's why i don't exactly dislike stress :)


Samsam told me that there's a new itouch. with camera too. almost exactly like iphone except that it can't call, can't text.
TEMPTED MAX!

it's weird that i'm feeling nothing about us, about both of us losing it.
the thing that's once so important.
now, i still think that it's worth my entire youth.
but like what they say, it's about time to leave youth and prepare for real adulthood.
in a way, it's all kinda expected.
in fact, you predicted this outcome despite of my assurance.
we both know, just that we didn't want to admit.
still special, definitely.
still close, but we have already accepted the difference between us.
and now, we're adapting to the change, to the change in me.



As you all know, I always find that the art of seduction is ever so beautiful and i guess its beauty comes from how abstract, how uncontrollable it is.
It's an addiction, it's a form of craving.
Planning the next move cunningly
Wanting so much to guess correctly his/her next move that sometimes, it gets out of hand and you lose not the game but yourself and not to him/her but to the game.
nothing else but skills and experiences,
that's all you need. inside a box.
that's where i kept it.
it's not really a physical one but rather, an imaginary one, the box that is kept in my heart.
so what do i placed inside the box?
something personal, something sacred
and definitely a secret.



here we are.
once again.
standing on top of the cliff.
let's see who jumps first.



there's something about tonight that makes you different,
that makes us different.
something which i can't figure out as of now.
something that i really really want to know but you refused to say as usual.
but it's okay.
because they always say, curiosity kills. Things to complete tonight:
- prepare for SEA tutorial group discussion(tmr)
- Philo summary for this week
- Complete at least half of ES Essay

i'm 70% sure that i'm going to skip social work lecture so that i can go home and do something more productive than sleeping.

(It's not even 8pm but I'm so sleepy alr.)


Hedonism is the view that the only thing really worth seeking in life is pleasure and that the only thing really worth avoiding is pain.
In short, pleasure is all that matters.
I'll never defend this view. i love them.
as usual, i'm talking about the usuals.
this bunch - so filled with love(and hatred).
the first from the usuals to serve our nation : LIM AH LIANG!
honestly, i know we'll miss him. miss all the late night suppers together, miss all the drives around the country.
alright, he's not going overseas. i know i know. it's just TEKONG anyway.

last night was awesomeee!
from my favourite thai express to the shopping of food to the late night picnic at barrage to all the photo taking(screams PAI ZHAOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!) to flying kite to another round of supper at west coast park to laughing at all the crazy acts in that most special 4 years in our life to finally, home sweet home at eh.... 5am?
i don't know why but everyone's so funny last night.
ahliang challenged himself with the ultimate spicy plate of chicken which Mr Lim, drew and me totally regretted trying.
i took the ice cream thinking that it's mini. i don't know why it turned out to be damn adult size.
Mr Lim's irritated face by our endless PAI ZHAOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm not supposed to comment on this but seriously, drew has a super ugly kite.
i think we fly kite in the funniest way ever. (we were damn unlucky too. NOT OUR FAULT! BLAME THE WIND!)
so much so much fun.

okay people. face the fact.
we just love each other so much!
i want the photos from Mr Lim and drew's camera!!!!!! (my camera is damn chui as compared to theirs.)

10th year anniversay.
I'm really going to plan it. you guys don't need to RSVP cause it's a compulsory event!
COME or DIE.

















Ah Liang, we'll miss you.
and once again, i love them. Facebook is a distraction. especially when one is suffering from severe lack of brain cells(useful ones) and is facing a serious problem of having 0 word for the weekly philo summary.
O-M-G!
this is the worst reading EVER.
The Self and The Phenomenal.

tell you what.
eat shit, and die.
they totally come together.

it's still 0 word.
he say that this is the worst reading, no more once i pull through this.
c'mon lingling.
YOU CAN DO IT!
(i know i can't)

friends, you all know right?
i really feel like crying! right now.
and i know after i cry, I'll be able to finish the summary in 10mins.

alright. i'm really really sad MAX. Thursday is my off day and Friday is public holiday, which means i'm having a superrrr long weekend! EXCITED! EXCITED! EXCITED!
but in order for me to enjoy myself to the fullest, i have to get 3 things off my to-do list by tmr night.
1) NM findings
2) complete SEA readings by tonight so that i can contribute to the meeting tmr. (yes! tomorrow.)
3) philo weekly summary (i'm being warned that it's DAMNNN difficult, as in the readings.)

alright people. i'm doomed! i don't like this.
this feeling of knowing too much.

oh no.
i need beer.
like seriously. i don't feel like doing anything productive today. AHHHH!!!!!
I'm totally in love with the mind blowing moment. I've spent the past 3 hours on my philosophy summary and i'm still not done yet.
this really sucks max and i can't believe that i have to do this every week.

I WANT MY HONEY LEMON!


i love macs breakfast!
(so hot~ so sexy~)




hello september.
hello my favourite.
hello special and precious.