effort is something that cannot be defined.
i'm so extremely sure of this.
and i really can't decide what to take for the last mod.
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit.

it'll all happen at the paradise - Maldives.
we'll embrace the warmth from the sun, witness many beautiful sunrise and sunset together, walk down the beach hand in hand, leaving many footprints of ours in the sand.
after many days and nights of romance, finally, he'll kneel down in front of me when the sun rise, signifying a brand new beginning for us.
he'll say, "hey love, will you marry me?"
and i'll smile with tears of happiness in my eyes and reply "yes. of course i will."
we'll hug each other so tightly, engage in the deepest kiss ever...

that's the most ideal proposal.
(If i ever do get proposed to.....) finally, my dream came true!
when i was 11, i heard this song by him, 可爱女人.
back then, i was thinking "hmmm. this is not a bad song...."
and not long after, his second album "范特西" was released.
The first song that i learn how to sing - 爸 我回来了.
and then, the 3rd album came about and i fell in love with 分裂 and 回到过去.
In 2003, "叶惠美" was released. i totally like the idea of the album cover. till now, i still like it alot. the long fingers. 妳聽得到 and 她的睫毛 are absolutely great songs although they're not the top hits.
My ex boyfriend used to sing 園遊會 and 简单爱 for me while we're talking on the phone.
After which, there's the classic album, "十一月的萧邦" which features the all-time favourite 夜曲 and 楓.
"依然范特西", i love the entire album, especially 退後, 白色風車 and the very different style from his music, 迷迭香.
There's also 不能说的秘密, 轨迹, 断了的弦 ...
Among all his albums, "我很忙" is the one that I'm somewhat disappointed in. Maybe he felt that he's obliged to release an album a year and so, he fulfilled it without the usual "wow" element this time round.
The 9th album, "魔杰座". Once again presenting top hits such as 給我一首歌的時間, 說好的幸福呢 and the oh so cute 魔術先生 and very sexy 蛇舞.
in 2010, the 10th year, the 10th album, "跨時代".
The Era, his era.
The underlying meaning of 跨時代 is that he hopes his music will be passed down to the other generations, the next era.

I like him since i was 12 and my dream is to watch his concert before i watch anyone else.
i really like talented and smart people, that's why, i like him.
i think he has all rights to be arrogant cause his talents prove it, prove everything.
It's his talent to create great music that i truly admire.

只为永恒的乐曲存在, 醒过来

Today, finally, my dream came true.
I'm so touched.
After so many years of supporting him and waiting for him, finally, i went for his concert.
It's awesome!
no other word can be used to describe it.
now that i'm at home, i'm feeling the emptiness that's left after the concert ended, after the thousands of people left the stadium. the empty stage, i try my best to let the images fall in.
It's a great 2.5 hours spent.

With these, i'm looking forward to the creation of great music.
here, my next dream:
i hope that when i'm in my 60s or even 70s, i'll have the chance to attend perhaps, his last world tour when he's in his 80s. No more grand set up of the stage, no more studded and bling-ed costumes, no more fireworks, no more dancers, no more guest singers.
just him, with his piano, with millions of crowd from different generations, who're just like me, appreciate and admire his musical talent.
i think that's his dream too.

因为他是周杰伦...
regarding "being involved".
i read it in many different ways...
at times i stay miles away from "involved"
and at times, i wanna be the first to be involved.
what about you? what about you guys?
sometimes, issues and such just come flying to me.
i didn't probe at all.
but well, since they're here, i take it to my own responsibility to protect those innocent ones.
yes, protection is it.


i can't sleep now because i was too tired after reaching hme at 5am in the morning, which means that i slept till 1plus, woke up for brunch, and slept again till 7plus.
i'm soooo wide awake now. damn.


tonight, i yearn for a change.
i want to make a difference so much.
don't we all love the thrill?
but too bad, i know very well that i won't do anything that'll hurt you.
both directly and indirectly.
so... i lost my chance again.
goodbye, my chance. medical appointment was at 8.30 but i freaking reached the health centre at 7.45.
bad decision in my life to overestimate the jam.

i can't sleep last night.
god knows why but i'm damn tired now.


i love dreams. i just finished flash forward.
great show!
Inception is a MUST-watch too.


i know.
i know i'm looking to that moment.
that exact moment.
Do take a look at the latest mega collection!
Thanks people!


"How nice if all of you met in jc."
he made me speechless.
have you people ever thought about this?
but this is what my uni friend said which i absolutely agree.
i miss us. always together.

a guy friend plays the role of a best friend and he can never do whatever you expect a boyfriend to do. cause he's still a friend after all.
however, a boyfriend plays both the role of a boyfriend, as well as a best friend. having a boyfriend is like having one more best friend.

i couldn't really sleep last night because i was thinking of something that someone said to me.
am i really alone because i chose to?


yay! inception tonight!
i love late night movies, except for the fact that they're damn expensive.

the new names and faces in my life.
i'm feeling a lot actually.
maybe it's the rise in my level of EQ once again.

i still have another 3 weeks left.
for myself. Do you think that the highest purpose of university education is the achievement of personal goals instead of fulfillment of national aims?

write a 500 words essay about this topic.
the time now is 9.30am and the paper will end at 11.15am.

FML.


the amount of students who didn't do well for GP is overwhelming.
i saw many guys who were tormented by the loss of ability to write like how they used to before they went to serve the nation. lots of people scratching their head, looking lost and so on.
i bet i looked like this too.

anyway, my friends and i agreed that this is a bad way to start uni life.
do you know how depressed and demoralized we felt before we entered the exam hall, while we're doing the paper and after we left the exam hall.

we're prepared for the 6th module anyway.

i never like it when interest and passion ended up giving me stress instead.
but then, stress is one good way to push someone to improvement.
and i understand that this is the only way to know who's good, who's not.

i would say that sometimes i'm impressed by myself.
sometimes.


there's something that i want to say so much but i know for sure that people around me will be aiming the palm on my face.
this is one good situation whereby i don't think anyone can understand the entire situation from my point of view.
but i know that i'll pull through whatever unhappiness i'm feeling right now.
i'm very confident of this.
I'm so sure this time round because given a chance again, i'll still make the same decision.


regarding smart guys.....
i think i'm too persistent.
overly. okay. now that i have to do the test tmr...... i feel like banging my head on the wall.
the last time i did compre and essay was in 2006, and that was 'o' levels.
suddenly, i realised how useless o's is........
gosh man.
i don't know what to do now :( seriously, it's not funny.
i just missed the registration date for some english test that all poly students( and those that didn't do well for the GP) must take
it's worse when the test is on this Thursday and gosh! it's some kinda essay writing(c'mon, it's compo) and comprehension stuffs.
tell me i'll survived through it man. i'm now suffering from world cup withdrawal symptoms......... sometimes, it has got to be us. it feels so different yesterday, as though everything is back to normal.
i guess right from the start, i should have trusted time to bring things back to normal, bring faith back to us.
and i'm so happy it all happened last night.
i woke up in the morning, feeling extremely tired, but there's this tinge of warmth lingering around in my heart.
my mind says i'm happy cause my friend is back.
double thumbs up on approval.

anw, i got Jay Chou's concert ticket.
you don't know how happy i am.
seriously


'i won't be enjoying when you're suffering' holidayyyyy. finally. i have this urge to run down to the nearest cinema and watch toy story.
but then again, i know i'll never like cartoon-genre kinda shows.
but then again, they say it's nice.
but then again, i'm saving so high chance i won't be watching it.

left with 2 days of work... how nice!
holiday, i'm coming to embrace you!
ytd, i met someone whom i never thought i will see again in my entire life.
it was maddddddd awkward but i said 'Hi' (which surprises myself too).
and then, i realise how insignificant events that happened now will be in the future.
all in all, it's just weird.

about 4 hours ago, i feel like putting on braces.
yeah. that was 4 hours ago.... are you those that make sure life is super packed with activities?
come up with a to-do list every single day?
i'm definitely not.
i enjoy it best when i'm alone and i have nothing to do.
i'm getting withdrawal symptoms from world cup.
can't imagine life after finals...
but one thing for sure is, you won't see me hanging around sgpools for the next 4 years :) anyway, do you judge? it's all about us.
you and me.
but i'm always trying my best to achieve "more of you, lesser of me."