I'm so happy. May is almost over.
it's either tmr or monday! :)
I wanna be the first to say Welcome back sweetheart.

so with May ending,
implied meaning - 2 more months to the end of holiday, start of another 4 years.
we all know how fast 2 months gonna be over.

alright, i've been sick for 6 days.
not the worst record still but it's the longest record.
finished all the flu pills but i just can't seem to recover.
tissues just can't seem to be enough.
there's just sth wrong with my throat, nose, whatever.
i'll go sleep now and whoever/whatever, please take away all the virus/germs/bacteria.
thanks......
goodnight! The long awaited graduation post. it's been on my mind way before we even took our final semester examinations.

let's rewind and go all the way back to 2007.
I don't know about you people but Business Administration(marketing) in SP was my first choice. Regardless of whatever o lvl results i took, without any hesitation at all, i knew that what i wanted was marketing marketing marketing.
that was me, in year 2006 actually.
so when school finally started, i regretted on the first week of school. i remember i was climbing up the beloved hill towards SB and suddenly, i stopped and questioned myself, "WTF am i doing here? i should seriously be in JJC!!!!!" it took me a long long while to console myself that i've got to live with my mistake and hopefully, make the best out of it.....

I started school being an emo kid in class, refusing to open my mouth to speak. I don't adapt well to new environment. During FOP, the whole class went to the toilet together and i stayed in class. I never had breaks with my classmates cause i'll walk all the way from SB to FC2 to meet up andrew.(bro, do you still rmb those days? MCSPICY!!!) I'll spend the rest of my possible breaks with bearbear. I'll meet up with feefee like almost everyday or every alternate days after our school and have our private bitching session as usual.

the first person who spoke to me was peijin(it's fated that even though we do not end up as besties, but we stick to each other for 3 years. nice!)
so after a few weeks, i wasn't exactly THAT lonely anymore cause i kinda make friends with lynette, rachel and kaming.
lynette was..... the first sight of her, i knew for sure that i'm gonna be friends with her, very very very good friends in fact.
rachel was..... very different from me.
kaming was.... the first person i talk to online, and heart-to-heart
so for quite a long long long long while, like the entire semester or something, i didn't speak to anyone else in the class except for these 3 people.
Most of the time in semester 1, i was pretty upset over the loss of someone special in my life. It hurts a lot at that time, very very much and we took quite awhile to bid goodbye to each other. well, that was when we were still young.

semester 2 started and conflicts started too.
lynette and i ended up joining the guys(kaming, daryl, senghui and rendy) and we happily formed a clique.

suddenly, i like going to school cause these people are fun to hang out with.
and yes, i got into a relationship, you all know who.
honestly, i thought we will last very long.
my friends thought so too.
but as usual, things don't end up the same as we thought they would.
year 1 kinda ended well. i miss DBA 06 for the simple reason that every groups shared project tips, helped each other.
cause this no longer exists as we leave year 1.

then, tragedy has got to happen.
my friends all went to the same marketing class, even bearbear also managed to joined them, but not me, not peijin either.
i was totally shocked and couldn't understand this kind of arrangement.
i was so upset and couldn't face the horrible thought of having to adapt ONCE AGAIN!
it totally sucks!!!
so i cried.
but i only allowed myself to cry once and i cried hard.
and so, year 2 started with tears.
and again, loner character kicked in.
i didn't enter DBA 11 with any intention of making any friends at all. trust me, there are people that i didn't speak to all the way from year 2 till now. bearbear says that i'm brilliant! haha.
so i sat at the corner for every modules. window seats belong to me!!!!
yes, projects can't be avoided.
everyone in class seems to already have their cliques except for us. so we joined, Zengliang, Hairul, Kenneth. this group is well.... i don't know. there are good times with each other where by we laugh as we struggle our way. everyone has got their special ability.
Zengliang is our leader. smart person, overall in charge of everything and settling our reports etc. Being our leader, i've got no fears of late submissions or any cock ups.
Hairul is very much, the one who's in charge of all the IT stuffs. Designing of posters, packaging box etc, yes, throw everything to him and he'll get it done.
Kenneth and peijin, both are good at doing research, something which i'm terribly bad am, so i'm very much amazed by them.
and i'm in charge of doing the slides of course and language check for the reports together with zl :)
yes, these are the good times, good qualities of everyone.
our bad times can really be very very bad.
attitudes - 180 degrees change.
people work differently, that's what i really learnt.
but it's a pity the last project that we 5 did together.... we didn't end it well.
still, thanks to the 4 of you! for the sufferings that we survived together in these 2 years.
in year 2, i broke up with you-know-who and got together with another you-know who.
(nettenette must be laughing like mad reading this right?)
Also, there was the HONG KONG TRIP in year 2!
daryl, kaming, bearbear and jess!

our favourite mango ice!!!!! much lovesss! :D
and not long after i came back from hongkong, i broke up with the second you-know-who.
then, for awhile i thought that i'm in love with someone else again but very quickly, i pull myself out of it.
and yes, after the break up with the second you-know-who, i'm became single yet unavailable, all the way till now. i still vote 'being single' as my favourite choice..
so in year 2, bearbear became friends with my friends! the best outcome ever! samantha joined us too and thus, the formation of the ever crazy Xiong Bang.
in our mafia uniform!

Let me now introduce the members!
The leader first.......

Chan Chai Ting Rebecca
my dearest friend! accompanying me through the 4 long years, we stayed together for another 3 years.
I'm sure everyone knows how much i love her, through the numerous breast and butt attack!
the classic one must be the "one snap and your bra comes off!" trick
lol. this sounds so censored.
i'm still in love with drawing on her notes but as we grow older, our ability evolved too.
the latest one is to draw on her legs
bearbeardeardear, i love you!
i won't stop the sacred question until one day you willingly choose me over liang! :)


Chan Ka Ming
he is....well..... awesome!
he used to have golden streaks on his fringe. (seng would say "typical ahbeng!")
but nope, he's not at all.
i think we have tooooooo many classics to be listed right?
"DON'T COMMAND ME!", " I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP!"
and do you still rmb the 5 fingers? "these two not suitable for you, this one not for you, left with two, aiya, i choose for you larrrr. Flick middle finger!"
haha. when i'm very very very old, thinking back of chankaming will make me laugh, very happily.
there are times when we quarrelled, badly, but in the end, i think neither of us will ever want to give up the friendship between us.
chan ka ming, thanks for always being there for the past 3 years. poly life will never be as great without you.
(but i love your dad more than i love you! haha. did i just managed to piss you off again?)


Cheow Lixian Samantha
one word to describe this babe here "crazy"
hey, one day we should hold a competition "the MOST crazy award".
it'll will be a close fight between us two.
other than our craziness, we're pretty much the same.
our character, mindset, attitude etc.
samsam is more positive than me but i am more ahlian-ish than her.
her best hokkien is really the 7 words.
pronunciation = 100% accuracy.
and also, our wardrobe have approximately 50% similar clothing :)
samsam, continue to bring in more crazy acts and laughter into my life! i love you babe! :)


Lim Hui Ying Lynette
sad to say but she's our one and only good girl representative.
she refused to take any of the 'smoking' photos with us!
everytime anyone of us sprout any vulgarities, you'll be sure to hear her "TSK!"
and also, if there's a chart for most sensitive person in xiongbang,
this lady here gonna top the chart.
haha. you'll be amazed :) but that's also the cute part of her.
she's well known among us for 90-10.
at some occasions, it becomes 110 and -10.... or even worse/better( i don't know whether this is good or bad. haha)
She once shared with me the story and reasons as to why, she isn't someone with lots of friends.
really minimal, until she met us.
but girl, don't worry. even if we do not meet up often etc, i strongly believe that this friendship will still remain. must have hope in us, in yourself. always know that i see you as someone important in my life and i love you, we all love ya! :)


Daryl See Jiao-fu
alright. straight to the point.
i hate him!
i cried in the lecture hall cause this stupid guy here used his even more stupid gorilla to scare the hell out of me. IT'S REALLY HORRIBLY SCARY!!!!!!
i screamed and jumped out of my seat.... in the middle of some speech.
now you know why i hate him.
loose wires in his mind......
standing in the middle of the road and "horn" at us!?!?!?!?!?
refusing to let me be his No.4.
trying to push us up the podium in butterfactory.
yeah, literally pushhh.
and plenty of others.
okay larrrr... everyone loves him except for me :)


Yeo Seng Hui
We're the december babies and he's always darn proud that he's older than me by one day, just one day!
This guy here is the real, typical ah beng!
i appreciated it everytime you waited for us at fc6 for our lessons to end.
Honestly, i was really upset when i know that you won't be graduating with us. it's weird you know? having gone through everything together for 3 years, but you weren't there during the very very very final step to the finishing line :(
but well, study hard boy! as hard as you work! :D
and stay strong in the heart, we love you too!


This is me, the self-claimed assistant leader of Xiong Bang.
ugh! i still don't understand why no one voted me to be the leader!
haha.

so year 3, the final year, final lap started.

This is my BD mates! we stayed together for the entire year. for once, projects were done without any conflicts! how nice! these people are good, i mean it! I'm fortunate to have them for my fyp! :)

my memory of year 3 is projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations, projects, reports, presentations!!!
this is how bad it is!

but xiongbang, being xiongbang, still found our way of having fun while we struggled!






























Of course, there's our Genting Trip in Sep'09 where xb and their individual spouses went on the first overseas trip. that is also the birth of 'our family' where my family is made up of me, samsam and kaming!







my family went for the Cambodia trip together with Mr Ben and Ms Lai and 16 other fellow schoolmates! :)
those days are really the peak of my family! :)
our family really survive through the hardships together!
much loves to the two of them!




in july 2009, someone dear came back, once again. and life, is so much full of hope and energy since then. us, together with the fireworks, we said happy new year and i really wished for one happy new year.
apart from projects, year 3 is full of emotions.
in order to form real, truly bonded friendships, i think we really need to walk through a long path. it's not only about having fun fun fun everyday.
in the third year, kaming and i quarreled a lot, a lot a lot a lot.
he was too angry to attend lessons, he banged his hand on the bed or smth. we were very often angry with each other cause of other people, other stuffs, nothing to do with both of us.
things got worse but in the end, we still forgive each other.
over mmit, i was very disappointed with majority of the xiongbang members.
up till now, i wouldn't say that it's their fault.
it's just well, different principles.
but it's over, and we no longer talk about it.
taiwan, was great, but only to a certain extent.
guess we all know why.
but come to think of it, it's a test for our friendship actually.
and it's the lowest period for our friendship.
but after i saw everyone's enjoying, really enjoying at the latest ktv session, i kinda concluded that what's over is over and let's work hard in creating more meaningful memories instead of dwelling over the unhappy ones, right people?
i love our ktv sessions, our drinking sessions, our mj sessions.
i love how we always watched movies together and ended up sleeping in the cinema.
i love eating prawn mee together.

and with these, finally, we graduated, together :)









Leaving SP, i'm definitely not as upset as i was when i was leaving huayi. the feeling is different.
at that time, i really can't bear to leave. but now, maybe because i've grown older, i know that there's no need to feel sad when you're leaving.
It's just part of life, part of growing up, part of entering into a new phase of life.
I'm writing this post now cause i want to remember these 3 great years.
and most importantly, i want you guys to know that i love you all :)
Cheers XB! i don't know you personally.
as in, i know who you are and you know who i am
but we don't know each other.
we didn't had any conversation before.
even when we traveled together.
in a way, i've always admire you.
i don't know why but i guess it's just the image you portray.
come to think of it, we share the same mindset for plenty of stuffs.
I read it once, i read it twice.
and then, i read it over and over again.
that line in particular.
i understand what you're saying, i know how you feel.
for quite awhile, i couldn't find the right word, right phrase, right sentence to describe my inner thoughts.
but after reading it, i realised it's a hit-on. exact point that i'm trying to say, exact point that i felt.

i don't like myself when i can't express my thoughts to myself well. It's always sweet to know that you are in someone's mind. sent and received. after two days of rest, i'm back to work tmr.
yes. blast me with all the korean songs again!
i'm psycho-ed by my friend and cousin to watch invincible youth.
and they're real determine to succeed.
hmmm...

i just made Merody perform to my cousin.


i'm a happy little girl.
we'll work things out slowly, and learn along the way :)


15th May - another 15 days! YAY! Her name is merody
M-E-R-O-D-Y
i cannot stop laughing.....
so happy! so funny! Finally, 5 days of working consecutively - ended!
I'm happily sitting at home now, feeling great that I've survived this 5 days!
and another 5 days nearer to the end of month! :) A walking melody is soooooo uber cute!!!!!
and it's mine!
so happy!!!!!! Part 1
alright.
i feel so wrong...so guilty.


Part 2
i wanted to talk to you last night.
wanted to.
being persistent is the keyword for us, like always.


Part 3
it's almost mid May. Recently, i feel so much for her.
She seems so depressed, that depressed till it made me speechless.
having no idea on how to, when to start consoling her.
She's crying so hard that her eyes start to swell much.
every show, every song, every person, every moment seems to upset/touch/hurt her.
i don't know what's wrong with her.
but i'm gonna give her my fullest support anyway.

There's plenty that i wanna tell her.
i wanna let her know that i can be her hope.
i wanna let her know that her high expectations can be met by me.
i wanna let her know that even if the whole world deceive her, i won't, never will.
i wanna let her know that i won't disappoint her, not even a single bit.
i wanna let her know that it's alright, i'll love her the most in this world.

Press on, girl.
Press on, my dear friend.
Press on, my best friend. As expected, May is filled with work.
As expected, May, i'll have to wait and wait and wait
till the end of May
I'm counting down.
once again to the end of May.

May - I'm gonna work alot
May - I'm having my graduation ceremony
May - I'm waiting. Back from Redang! :)
ever most beautiful place i've been to.
i'm not going to sentosa anymore. haha.
snorkeling is fun but mad tiring.
lots of photos but they're with mrlim and feefee.
now i miss the suite, the fishes, the corals, the sea, the sky, the stars, our top graded ala carte meals, the people i went with....
but not the sun though.

Secrets revealed
1) someone is like totally gay by being that afraid of dark. (boy, this will follow you for life and i mean it cause i'm so gonna haunt you with it all the way. LOL)
2) someone totally lost control whenever the night arrives. mad high-pitch screaming, sumo in action, singing that stupid two-words song that made all of us laugh so hard. seriously, he did alot of joker stuffs at night. OH YARH. how can i forget the most impt part. we all think that he has got something when it comes to tv programmes cause it's ridiculous, every show is nice.... =.=
3) someone slept so much for this entire trip. before i slept last night, i kinda convince myself that even if the trip is 24 hrs, she'll be asleep for 22 hrs. the 2 hours that she's not sleeping shall be left for munching. and the thing is, she's so proud of it which is so funny.

although the trip is slightly too short, as in the time we had to spend at the island. But still, it's a really both thumbs up trip.
good job people! :)



I shall get the rest of the photos soon :) too high expectations on you, on us.
haha.