but, you will have my fullest support. we're playing strategy now.
every move is a tactic to crush each other's heart.
and i'm enjoying every single moment of the game.
what about you? please, god bless bmg.
I'm so worried now. the more i think, the more afraid i am.
i doubt i can sleep tonight.
too much to worry about.
this is happening far too often recently.
so freaking tired everyday and when i lie on my comfy bed, somehow, i just can't sleep.
keep thinking of what needs to be done, the deadlines for everything, exams, blah blah blah.
this situation is bad.
Hopefully, tmr night will be fun enough to let me relax for awhile.

Anyway, I've launched a new online store with my sister and the first collection by my sis is out!
So, do click on the link, take a look and SUPPORT US! :)
Breathe people, Breathe. Things to keep me alive for the time being:
1) snacking
2) my brain
3) my conscience
4) _______

from now, till 12.02.2010 B is for busy.
V is for very busy.
E is for Extremely busy.

This is really one of the extremes in the entire 3 years of my poly life.
and suddenly, the rush is not funny anymore. Astons is no good without its french fries...
But the people i had Astons with are still as great as ever.


Out of time. damn it. balancing is difficult. the classic line today:
Favouritism is part of life.

the line is still running in my head cause i am so amused by it.
LOL. i spend the whole of today thinking of moving out(am now still thinking of it). at what age will i move out and live by myself. as in, really by myself.if i am single( or rather low potential of getting married) by age 27, i will move out. and if i can afford(let's say strike lottery), i will buy myself a condo(those one-room kind).
how nice! :D

Pros:
- no one to snatch the bathroom with me(esp after dance, which is what happened just half an hour ago)
- i cook dinner for myself and that's it. no other complications. (i made these for blah blah blah in those awkward tone. alright, it's alright!)
- i can see less of those that i don't want to see.
- i can stay out as late as i want
- i don't need to worry about being lock outside the house(cause if u live alone, u are bound to bring your keys everywhere you go.)
- LAGI BEST! that is i don't need to pick up any phone calls. cause i really hate it when my house phone rings. it's obvious the call isn't for me YET i have to pick it up.

Cons:
- i will really have to do the housework all by myself. no more doing only when parents are abroad.
- bills bills bills......... the thought of bills is scary enough to just call off the whole plan.
- no more family dinner, mum's cooking (not that we're having the full force family dinner very often recently, but still, it's sth that is ever so important in my life. ahhhhh...we're back at this damn topic.)
- what if i forget to bring my keys? what if i lose it? what if i left it at my friend's place? Ultimate shit-ness.
- i will miss my papa and mama.
- i will absolutely fall in love with being alone to the extent that it may be both a pro and a con.

and here we have, equal amount of pros and cons. 7 more years to think about it! Home Alone on a sunday. sometimes, all we need is "s-o-r-r-y". I want twister fries! before 6pm, i was very happy cause i kept shouting "WHERE IS JIAMING?"
after 6pm, it was a very average kinda mood.
after 9.30pm, i am now very unhappy. I'm officially EX-xiongbang member cause i RESIGN!!!
(Yes! with a resignation letter)
and samsam wrote a letter to our managing director, requesting to be demoted to part-time xiong.

and both letters have been approved by our managing director(my EX-lao da)
which means that......
XB is only left with 5 members!
(cause samsam + Daryl = 1 member)

BEARBEAR! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!!! fuming flames.
either i strangle myself to death or you become more logical. Bus ride home is kind of my favourite time of the day.
it's always so.........personal.
ipod stuck into my ear, songs shuffling, the people who board as well as alight from the bus.
plenty of happenings to look at :)



anyway, i miss myself more than i miss you. the last two days, my mood was really down the hill.
i only managed to kind of recover after i met up with the lov-shuff.
for plenty of reasons, but the main one. well, it really sucks to know that no matter how hard u tried, there's this opposition force that will always be stronger than your determination and hard work to succeed.
but well, i've come to terms with myself.

as usual, i must admit that i'm pretty rude for that 2 days, basically to everyone.
still, i don't feel like apologising to anyone.....but well, yeah.
and i'm certainly offended by someone's act/respond/reaction/whatever u call that
i hate to say this but he is forgiven.(but u know, i'll still hate you!)

Coincidentally, we have the spring/summer/autumn/winter! :)
how great a night at westcoastpark!

cambodia's trip is drawing near.
as much as i'm looking forward to it, i'm also worried.
let's all pray hard that we'll have a safe 12 days.

regarding the issue of saving, i guess i'm pretty harsh on some of you but for obvious reason, it's of good intention, for fear that the few of you will be left behind. There isn't any specific reason, and of course, no offence but it's just that i've decided not to ask or probe into any of this matter anymore. so, like what they say "every man for himself" haha.

next weekend! next weekend! next weekend!

all along, throughout my entire life up till now, i didn't like confessions. especially, deep down from your heart kind of confession. i'm not referring to those BGR kinda confessions, it's more like those, hearing or speaking from the heart kind. i never like beating about the bush but still, confessions are too much for my weak heart to take it.

this is going to be random but seriously, i'm falling sick.

i wonder when will i be able to stop worrying about the uni stuffs.
yeah, when i know i'm accepted/rejected =.=

okay. i'm going next door for MAHJONG! Let's go hide in one corner.
no one finds us.
we cry till our tear ducts can't produce anymore tears. No good.................. today, my mood is very )%^&#*$^@$&.
i'm lazy to explain why cause i just whined to my mama.
and again, she gave the most typical and irritating response.
"Don't complain, life is like this.........."
WTH!
i seriously hate to bear the consequences of others' mistake. I'm having tau huey now and It has been in my fridge for the second day, second night, and it's bought for me and i'm so hungry.
Despite all the 'Ands', i'm eating it with the back of my mind constantly reminding me that i may suffer from food poisoning. but well, it tastes all right, not very sweet anymore but it's not sourish YET.
How nice i am eating Thai Express's Tom Yam glass noodles (FEEFEE & NETTENETTE, you girls want it too right????) with mc's Twister Fries!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!! i think my tau huey sucks now :(

do you once in a while get the i-am-floating-in-mid-air kind of feeling?
I'm like this very often lately, but i have yet to decide if it's a good or bad thing.
one of the FEW similarities or is it one of the MANY similarities?
i hope you'll prove me wrong.

Lots of taiwan trip planning. rather than the hollow talk that we used to have, it's now all about intensive research, trying to get the whole plan out and stuffs. And it excites me!

Last bit of tau huey was just sent into my mouth about 3,4,5...seconds ago which means i'm going to visit my bed!!!!! 8am lesson tmr?!?!?!?!? well, i'm going to look forward to seaweed chicken and the pizza hut taste-alike drumlets. oh gosh! we're graduating so soon.
instead of asking, What's ur GPA now? everyone's asking, What you intend to do after u graduate?
I'm not liking this whole process at all. cause i'm not at all sure what is my future.
fingers crossed that i'm able to get into a local uni.
please......... Rendezvous

the last moment of 2009 and the first moment of 2010.

2009 signifies a lot.
the first half of the year, i couldn't really remember much actually. other than studying for the worst paper(HRM) i had in my poly life till now, like what feefee said - the formation of Lov-shuff, and the never ending ITP days. seriously, i can't recall anything else.
the focus of 2009 is on the second half of the year.
it was rather emotionally filled.
i had a great amount of fun & laughter as well, especially with the little xiongs.
i witnessed changes from people around me, good or bad, it's still hard to say but i supposed i'm not the one to judge.
for once, i experienced real backstabbing from projects. as much as i wish and hope that whatever happened was just a misunderstanding, all the evidences prove to be well... i don't want to continue on this topic.
and of course, the most important thing that happened to me in 2009 was 'Lost-and-Found'
i didn't expect new year eve would be spent like this, but definitely, it's the best in my life.
Happy New Year.
i'm truly thankful for all.

with the best start for the new year, i hereby declare, i'm so looking forward to 2010.
it may sound nerdy or whatsoever, but the only new year resolution is to work even harder and get into local uni. that's the one and only resolution.
ermm. alright, i should say, that is the most impt resolution cause i just thought of one more. and that is to be more sensitive to what i say, so i don't hurt others unintentionally.

so, once again, happy new year to all.