i just won the $5 deal. A date with the date on that date. we all yearn for a bubble of protection around us, so as to remain unharmed.
but sometimes, the protection is in our heart.
did you realised that it's always there?


i don't look forward to you anymore.
status and roles, we've swapped position.
perhaps, as much as i used to understand you, i don't want to undergo yet another exchange.
this time round, i want to be the one to call for a stop.


i've got this cute+sweet+lovely+pretty+lovable+adorable+nice+friendly friend who sent me a christmas card.
soooooo sweet.
but at the bottom right of the envelope, she wrote "Hate You!"
(i smiled when i read your card)
but anw, i realised that for this special group of people in my life, the 3 sacred words I-HATE-YOU seemed to be said soooooooo often that maybe it meant I-LOVE-YOU in a way or another. everyone's saying it to each other, and very often too. At times, that's the way we greet each other early in the morning. Today, i miss you all alot, no specific reasons but just, full of you guys in my mind.


Whole of christmas spent with family, the entire day. and as usual, i've always love the warmth that came from my big big family.

next up, it'll be new year....... Butterflies. Girls, my sisters and mama say that Sexy Chan looks like me.
exactly the same feel.
and i can't stop laughing when i hear it giggle with that damn emo face.

KOREA!!!!!!! HERE I COME!!! I'm very upset, not pissed off, not angry. it's really pure disappointment.
never felt such a strong sense of disappointment for a long time.
maybe i'm naive, maybe i'm blessed with good people around me,
but this is the very first time i felt what you people call
'back stab'
and this very first time, it's a sharp knife stabbed right into my spine.
not that i trust you all very much, but i've least expected that u guys will do this.
now, i hate business too.
or to be specific, i hate those studying business.
evil is the right word to use.

and so, i got a few hours left to clear the mess before i leave for Korea with guilt.
1) i used to care a lot for you. not that i don't anymore, but it's more like i'm trying to figure out why. why i used to care a lot for you. and then, try my best to move us back to that kind of relationship that we used to have. deep down, i really want us to be together cause i still love you.

2) i always thought that you are the one who will always be there. no matter what. i was rather disappointed by the decision u made actually. for one night, only. after a good night sleep, i woke up to realise that i should stop grumbling cause you are the best thing on life. i'm grateful enough for that and thus, i still love you.

3) i am so touched. still very touched when i think of what u did. never expect us to be so close, ever so close. you are fun, full of life, always so spontaneous with whatever crazy ideas i have. now, i'm extremely certain that for the entire of this life, we will not part and no matter what happens in the future, i will still love you.

4) you are ever so special, glowing in my life. with you beside me, i glow too. little 'us' things are finally coming back. slowly but yes, finally. i'll call this determination and patience, only for you. i'm so excited about us. the classic line between us is back. for once, i don't know how to react, my eyes opened wide and i literally felt my jaw dropped. all in all, i just want to say that despite of the unclear path ahead of us, of the relationship we used to have and is having now, i will still love you.

the 4 important groups of people that occupy the entire of my life, up till now.
i will always love you all.
and i'm sure, we are what they call forever. Happy Birthday lingling. Expectations are never met.
especially when it's related to ________. never heard of unlike poles attract?
but, we're not magnets.
it's going to be so different, till you don't feel love anymore.

some kind hearted soul found my thumbdrive and i'm going to get it back tonight!!
lucky lucky.
my friend had this similar scenerio happening to him too.except that he's the one who found the thumbdrive,
and................well.
think hard and you'll find it funny.

deliberately outcasting is like some kind of revenge.
that we both know?
it's a matter of time, when will we expose each other.
but we aren't supposed to force each other into this route isn't it?

2 more papers. law and maths.
yes, i'm referring to amaths.
samsam and me are both regretting.
look forward to friday together!!!!
crazy partying & massive drinking. Hopelessly true.........(if only you think so)

Dear Chua Jing Lin, below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result:

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures! I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE BUT I'M SO HAPPY!
CAUSE MY GROUPMATE KEPT A COPY IN HIS LAPTOP.
I SWEAR I ALMOST DIED OF HEART ATTACK.
SERIOUSLY. I'M SUPER UBER HAPPY NOW.
HE ACTUALLY KEPT A COPY IN HIS LAPTOP!!!!!!
OMG!!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MAN.
OMGOMGOMG!!!!
I'M SO LUCKY.
I'M SO THANKFUL.
AND I'M GONNA TREAT HIM DRINKS TMR!
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) Someone. i was at the clubhouse under FC4 today and once again, i got lost. i'm looking for a washroom actually. so i went up to FC4. maybe i missed the turn that bearbear told me? so i went straight, all the way up to the convention centre area, then to T17. i walked up the stairs, all the way to level 5. i gave up. took a lift to level 2, walk straight and finally i saw a washroom! and the best part is, i almost forgot how to get back to the clubhouse.
well well.
sense of direction..........