Part I
As much as many happenings around us may seem unbelievable, impossible, out of control,
we're always trying to do our very best, trying to figure the different options available,
and work out the best way that the situation allows us to.
work out a way that we choose to believe in,
hoping that things will turn out fine.
sometimes, we'll still fail.
despite of all the hard work.
and we start cursing blah blah blah.
after a period of time, we'll be thrown into yet another similar situation. (rmb people, this is life.)
and the cycle repeats itself.
In this cycle, we interact with people around us.
whether we're close friends, classmates, families, buddies, friends for life or even love, it doesn't matter.
cause in the end, it's always up to us, up to our own heart, to choose who should we trust, which option to take up and which way to go.
being disappointed is something that i really hate alot, yet, experienced it a million times, with that few specific times with things ending ugly.
lately, i've been rather disappointed with this person whom i trusted alot, whom i loved deeply as a friend, whom brought lots of surprises into my life, whom i respected alot, whom i really can't live without.
but an incident, and BOOM!
I'm gone. I chose to step out actually.
cause this happened without him/her knowing.
without knowing i've lost all the trust and respect that he/she was given.


Part II
i've been commenting this frequently to a specific person: "we should not live our life for that guy, for that one person."
but actually, come to think of it. we're all living for something, for someone isn't it?
that's why there are goals in life. and we live to accomplish them.
a girl i know, she told us that her goals in life is to be punctual for school and listen attentively in class, participate actively.
yes, first reaction, nerdy.
just like what the tutor said,
after giving second thoughts to it, you'll realised that her goals are simple, realistic and achievable.
so aren't we dumb to set high and simply unrealistic goals and end up, being disappointed with ourselves? (one fine example will be when i was 13, my goal is to get married when i'm 18.) yes people, please roll your eyes.

Part III
this week, i've been very happy, for all sorts of reasons(which shall remain as a secret.)
anw, today, i set myself this achievable goal and that is to stop sprouting all those sinful words.
i shall work hard on my good girl image.
trust me, it's achievable cause i'm very motivated to.

Part IV
goodnight world. goodnight loved ones. goodnight guys. goodnight buddies. goodnight love.
and most importantly,
goodnight lingling.
cause i really need one now.