Aren't we all excited? 12 days more.
to the end of MST.
to the beginning of holiday.

which stands for ultimate level of fun on the way.


from 3 to 1, or even half?

from 1 to the bottom of the list, and start climbing up the list to be 1 again.
but 1 may not be a rank, may not be how we prioritize stuffs.
it may only be a number.
just a simple number, and yet, we read too much behind it, trying to understand what it really means, feel happy/irritated/disappointed over it.
after all, when we realised that it's only a number......

speechless.
totally speechless.


and, we no longer adore the same thing anymore. All I Need is 5 minutes. 我们都一样, 总是被动着. There's no limit as to how happy one can be. I was given plenty of chances back then.
if only i know this is the outcome, i would have done many things, chose many other options that would have changed the current situation.
living with a phobia.




Reflections needed for all of us, perhaps the whole clique. - Noted. Apart from the other reasons, communication plays a large part in the current situation.

I often wonder if i'm the one having all the nonsensical problems but lately, i realised that it's you instead. and i'm pretty sure that i'm not the only one who feels this way.
maybe, you're just too into your own world?
i don't know, just guessing actually.
but it's true, that you've changed. (yes, again).
it's hard to communicate, no longer can we get to the just-say-anything-and-everything mode.
i have to keep thinking, worrying if this will hurt you, will u get upset blah blah blah.

i know you won't like what i'm going to say out, esp publicly(but it's not like many read this okay?), but this is the only way which i thought, if u ever come across, you'll read it, without judging it.

but still, the faith is still there.
i believe that things will get better, you will get better,
no matter what. exception.
you are the exception.

the perfect person at the perfect venue.
with that perfect ____.
in that perfect dream. Part I
As much as many happenings around us may seem unbelievable, impossible, out of control,
we're always trying to do our very best, trying to figure the different options available,
and work out the best way that the situation allows us to.
work out a way that we choose to believe in,
hoping that things will turn out fine.
sometimes, we'll still fail.
despite of all the hard work.
and we start cursing blah blah blah.
after a period of time, we'll be thrown into yet another similar situation. (rmb people, this is life.)
and the cycle repeats itself.
In this cycle, we interact with people around us.
whether we're close friends, classmates, families, buddies, friends for life or even love, it doesn't matter.
cause in the end, it's always up to us, up to our own heart, to choose who should we trust, which option to take up and which way to go.
being disappointed is something that i really hate alot, yet, experienced it a million times, with that few specific times with things ending ugly.
lately, i've been rather disappointed with this person whom i trusted alot, whom i loved deeply as a friend, whom brought lots of surprises into my life, whom i respected alot, whom i really can't live without.
but an incident, and BOOM!
I'm gone. I chose to step out actually.
cause this happened without him/her knowing.
without knowing i've lost all the trust and respect that he/she was given.


Part II
i've been commenting this frequently to a specific person: "we should not live our life for that guy, for that one person."
but actually, come to think of it. we're all living for something, for someone isn't it?
that's why there are goals in life. and we live to accomplish them.
a girl i know, she told us that her goals in life is to be punctual for school and listen attentively in class, participate actively.
yes, first reaction, nerdy.
just like what the tutor said,
after giving second thoughts to it, you'll realised that her goals are simple, realistic and achievable.
so aren't we dumb to set high and simply unrealistic goals and end up, being disappointed with ourselves? (one fine example will be when i was 13, my goal is to get married when i'm 18.) yes people, please roll your eyes.

Part III
this week, i've been very happy, for all sorts of reasons(which shall remain as a secret.)
anw, today, i set myself this achievable goal and that is to stop sprouting all those sinful words.
i shall work hard on my good girl image.
trust me, it's achievable cause i'm very motivated to.

Part IV
goodnight world. goodnight loved ones. goodnight guys. goodnight buddies. goodnight love.
and most importantly,
goodnight lingling.
cause i really need one now. Everyone has a wishlist, in our heart.
so, what's yours? A MILLION THANKS TO BEARBEAR CHAN CHAI TING FOR SAVING MY DAY!






i asked but you didn't mention it.
or maybe, i didn't ask? the reason i hate you.
one and only reason. think i'm falling sick.
but i've got something impt tmr, the day after tmr. can i fall sick on tues instead? Where is my F1 pay?????????????????? i'm disappointed but, you're still you.

and, i am still me. Do i know you?
Maybe not.


anything related to you, i'm always slower, in terms of reacting, knowing what's going on.


so, do i know you?
as much as i hope i do, i'm sorry cause maybe, I don't. so, like some of you might already know.
Chelsea won, which means i won.
so today i had,
1) 1 bowl of prawn mee
2) 1 bowl of yong tau foo
3) 2 cans of chrysanthemum
4) 1 packet of fries
5) 1 box of chocolate eclair
6) 1 cup of fruit punch

all for free :)

and, i'm sooooooo looking forward to friday. i bet chelsea win or draw tonight.
and the bet is
1) $2
2) Lunch tmr.
3) Drinks tmr.
4) ONE FUCKING TIGHT SLAP.

okay. wish me luck people.
but wait, i'm not a chelsea fan though. haha. ytd i had the craziest ktv session ever.
it wasn't the 'high-est' but it's definitely insane.
we drank, danced, 'kissed' and of course, vulgarities flew across the room like no one's business.
the easiest way of explaining is, we basically treat ytd ktv's room as our own private club. we played all the clubbing songs and danced. LOL.
little cousins telling nette how scary her friends were.
and good girl, nettenette, got no company ytd cause her only partner, bearbear, went insane too.
in fact, she won all of us =.=
one fine example: nettenette kept tuning down the volume and bearbear kept tuning up. i cant rmb how many times this happened.
not a good thing though, we need more good girls to keep the group 'healthy'.
the ratio needs to be maintained at 2 good girls : 5 ____(fill in the blank yourself).

oh btw, samsam said that my driving skills is better than asshole, CKM.
of course man :)


and, i can't believe i downloaded windows live messenger by myself. We keep telling ourselves, we want this, we want that.
and very often, we completely forget to ask ourselves if that is really a need in our life.

for example, a degree.

for the entire of my 3 years in sp, i keep saying that i'm aiming for local unis.
but, what if i can't get in?
what if i can get in, but it's not business, not marketing that i'm studying?
do i still want it?
as in, really want it?

i'm starting to doubt what i really want?
is it the degree that i want or is it just something i want to prove that i didn't made the wrong decision 3 years back?
am i really concern for my future, fearing that a degree is needed or maybe, i just didn't want to leave the student phase of my life.
maybe i'm just afraid to step into the real working society.
maybe i'm really scared of being adult.

and once again, that leaves us with plenty of thinking to do for this fabulous long weekend right? Saw 6 is R21
:( Please click on the link to Nettenette blog and read about our drama days in school.

fking tutor successfully brought out the ahlians & ahbengs inside us that we used to carry to school everyday in our individual secondary school days.
buay dong!

My strategy: ignore him and turn up for class still. but we'll get an A for it! together. all 5 of us. make his eyes pop out and scream OMG! i feel like crying.
Do you get this feeling once in a while too?
but i really feel like crying.
i'm off to find my pillow, and bed. eww, it's 5 days!

brani money is in, finally, and that left us with F1 only.

today, this guy from finland scolded that 7 words hokkien vulgarities while we're queuing up for yong tau foo at fc 6. His pronunciation is perfect! and seriously, it's damn hilarious. He went on to teach us Finnish vulgarity. And then, the good girl NetteNetteLim said something like, vulgarities should not be international language.

it's 4 days school week! aren't we happy about it?
friday shall be spend watching movie/singing ktv/drinking!